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Thursday, October 26, 2017

Nine of Cups - I Wish...I Hope





Today after spending a restless night, I intentionally sought out some kind of message of comfort, from whatever card I drew this morning, because I've been feeling so sad. It's been a difficult couple of months emotionally with the loss of a long time friend and another dear friend, now in palliative care.

Considering this card, the Nine of Cups it is the best one I could draw, as it's the wish card, representing fruition, comfort and satisfaction.

The truth is, we can make wishes all we want but it doesn't change reality regardless of what is happening in our lives and in the lives of those we love so much. So I don't spend my time wishing. Of course I wish things were different, but they're not and there's nothing else I can do but find a place of acceptance, and forgiveness and instead of wishes, I hope and pray for acceptance of situations that I struggle very much with, because they're so unacceptable. I know I have to let go and trust that the God of my understanding will do what I can't do myself, in order to find the way.


4 comments:

Ellen said...

I sincerely hope you will find all the strength you need in this difficult period my dear friend and I also want to thank you so much for writing down exactly what I needed to hear today
gentle hugs
Ellen

Catherine Meyers said...

Thanks so much Ellen your kind words. They're balm to my hurting heart today.
Sometimes life feels so cruel, but I know it's just life and I have to accept it on it's terms not mine, as it comes one day at a time. Big Hug! <3

thesycamoretree said...

Grief is a heavy load to bear, especially during this time of year. May your heart be wrapped in a quilt of comfort, and may you be given the strength to move through your pain.

"Believe more deeply. Hold your face up to the Light, even though for the moment you do not see." Bill Wilson

Catherine Meyers said...

Thank you so much Bev for your comforting and kind words. And for the Bill W. quote. It helps and means a lot. <3